CA2 is over.... but i don't feel so happy. lol.


Anyways, I've just realised how much of a perfectionist I am. I set waay high expectations for myself in everything, even VERY insignificant stuff. Then when I don't reach my expectations, I sulk/emo/get frustrated/lash out at people. (like what I said to FN today) But then again, I lack the will to improve and change. So I keep blaming myself for not being good enough... when there's a better solution to all this.

Sighs.

It's a vicious cycle. And I'm not gonna sit in it forever.

Hahas... realised that I haven't blogged for AGES. ;p

Let's see... so what's going on in my life?

CA2 in 2 weeks, and piano exam immediately after. Which means I have to chiong my maths, my largely forgotten SBQ and SEQ stuff and chiong piano at the same time. But come to think of it, it's not THAT bad actually...

And I've been hooked onto Bleach quite badly. Grr. D:

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"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't about how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

-- The Velveteen Rabbit, Margery Williams

I didn't know a conversation between 2 stuffed toys could be so fascinating. Wow. =D


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