you must be wondering why I neglected his poor blog for 3 days...
I was away for some sort of scout camp. In fact i don't consider it a camp. It was pure SAIKUNG because we were supposed to have a campfire on 3oth August.
Anyways, so it was abit tiring because we slept at abt 2.00am for those 2 nites. But it was quite worth it, 'cause the campfire was a smashing success!w00t!
And btw, VSBB came for the campfire. Unfortunately, only a few 'seniors' (I suppose), came. I was hoping that ppl like lip, jonas and joel would come. but that was not e case. =(
I was feeling rather boliao so I googled 'victoria school arrow scouts campfire' I'm happy to say that ppl thought that e campfire was good; gr8 to hear that!
What's wrong with the world mama? People living like aint got no mamas I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism But we still got terrorists here livin In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK But if you only have love for your own race Then you only leave space to discriminate And to discriminate only generates hate And if you hatin you're bound to get irate Yeah madness is what you demonstrate And that's exactly how anger works and operates You gotta have love just to set it straight Take control of your mind and meditate Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all
People killing people dying Children hurtin you hear them crying Can you practice what you preach Would you turn the other cheek? Father Father Father help us Send some guidance from above Cause people got me got me questioning Where is the love?(where is the lovex3)(the love2x)
It just ain't the same all ways have changed New days are strange is the world the insane? If love and peace so strong Why are there pieces of love that don't belong Nations dropping bombs Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones With ongoing suffering As the youth die young So ask yourself is the loving really strong? So I can ask myself really what is going wrong With this world that we living in People keep on giving in Makin wrong decisions Only visions of them livin and Not respecting each other Deny thy brother The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover The truth is kept secret Swept under the rug If you never know truth Then you never know love Where's the love y'all?(I don't know) Where's the truth y'all?(I don't know) Where's the love y'all?
People killing people dying Children hurtin you hear them crying Can practice what you preach Would you turn the other cheek? Father father father help us Send some guidance from above Cause people got me got me questioning Where is the love?(where is the lovex3)(the lovex2)
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder As I'm getting older y'all people get colder Most of us only care about money makin Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction Wrong information always shown by the media Negative images is the main criteria Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema Whatever happened to the values of humanity Whatever happened to the fairness and equality Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found
People killing people dying Children hurtin you hear them crying Can you practice what you preach Would you turn the other cheek? Father Father Father help us Send some guidance from above Cause people got me got me questioning Where is the love?(fade)
Song- where is the love by the black eyed peas
I'm staying up late to type all this. =)
But when I listened to this song I was like 'OMG! It's just too true!'
I'm rather ashamed of myself, in the sense that as i was listening to the song, I was wondering, what exactly is LOVE? If I can't even know what love means, how am I supposed to love?
I seriously want to stop all the hate, stop all the bullying, stop all the hurt that I'm causing to ppl. Emoness, mood swings are just excuses; it's time to stop all this nonsense. seriously.
This song has a couple of christian elements in it. For example we have "Father Father Father help us" and "would you turn the other cheek?" and for me, the truth they talked about refers to the bible and basically, GOD. But that doesn't mean that this song is irrelevent to you if you're not a chrisitan; the messages of loving each other are always UNIVERSAL.
I seriously pray that i will start to love the people around me; not gayish infatuation, but brotherly and sisterly love. =) I want to start on this journey where in the end I really love the people around me; the people in 1G, my cca mates, my teachers etc. Its time, I feel, to stop the coldness.Its time to start the real genuine true patient kind love.
my reading aloud was not bad I think, but conversation was not as good. My topic was 我的嗜好，stammered quite a bit, but overall I think my oral results should be quite ok.
and I'm going to remove the friends test soon... after all, no one bothers to try it... sad case, sad case...
anyways, I've just went through my chinese oral... taking a break by blogging...
2dae received back my lit. paper, and was quite shcoked to find out that I failed it!
ARGH.
But don't worry, as i said b4, studies isn't everything to me; so I'm not going emo and totally ballistic because of that.
CA2 has been a very good reflection of my SA grades. If I sat for SA at this time, i guess I would flunk the exam. badly.
I also realised where my weaknesses were at. In both science AND maths, i got 'pulled up' by TfU project. But in SA, its goodbye to TfU and hello an intimidating 1hr + EOY exams.
I realised that what Mrs Lim said in last last CE lesson was true. Its time we started revising for EOY. I think I btr start solidly revising from now... btr get 2gether with e ppl in my tudy group, btr 'do the right things right' ;p
Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to the plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing is alright
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said Nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard Just to talk to you But you don't understand
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
This song seems to be dedicated to those 'kiasu' parents, those that pressurize their children to do well in studies, get that O level cert, enter a good sec. sch... the list goes on and on...
What they don't realise is this: Studies isn't everything. Unfortunately, Singapore's education system is so 失败that everyone thinks that aceing the next test, getting a perfect L1R5 is e most important.
I would certainly prefer to see someone with a not-so-perfect L1R5 but with a good character, a good heart and a good set of values, as compared to someone with the perfect grades but with a totally corrupted mind and heart. And here I'm not talking about 'hornyness'. I'm talking about something even worse than that.
Come to think of it, 10 years down the road, who cares about how much you score for your PSLE, who cares about how much you got for your lit. CA, and who cares what your O level results were? Those are all history; what is more important is the PRESENT.
I'm not THAT good in maths (mr liu shuai chen is), but anyways, i hope to be able to help you...
First of all, maths is not a study subject (e.g. history, geography, or even science) where reading up your textbook, referring to notes can help you that much. You must PRACTICE!
For a start, try the textbook or wb questions, or even assessment books. Make sure that their questions gt some 'standard' however. =)
Be on par with Mrs Wong. What I mean is that if she is teaching construction now, make sure you are revising the same topic as she is teaching. If you don't understand anything, go to her, your tutors, parents etc. (anyone who can help you)
When I do a final revision for exams, let's say a few nights before, I will usually go through the questions in my wb, assesment books. Make sure you go through every question, and if you are wrong, know why you made that mistake. Go back to your wrong questions and 'redo' them from time to time; see whether you can get them correct. This will test whether you really understand how to solve e question.
In whatever you do, you must work hard to achieve success. That's why we have nil sine labore. Same for maths. It's the practice that makes the difference.
Oh yeah, remember to revise for your maths early, so you don't burn midnight oil. ;p
I don't know if all this is useful to you... but I hope it is... you can ask ppl like shuai chen or jeremy for more help... Finally, join a study group if you think you cna study in groups....
I'll be making a video about 1G 2008 towards the end of the year! =) This is just a trailer. meanwhile, keep your eyes peeled for more updates!
Btw, if you have any videos/ pictures of 1G in action (especially videos) pls send them to me at my email: kanrenjie@yahoo.com.sg Your help is shincerely appleciated.
If you spam that email, you are seriously DEAD. (jk, jk XD)
Monday, August 18, 2008
beautiful illusions?
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the title of this wonderful skin I'm using is "beautiful illusions" But what does that actually mean?
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According to the dictionary, an illusion is: a misleading image presented to vision.
We see illusion everyday. They are lurking in the shadows of our lives; we never notice them, but they are still there.
Let's have an example, shall we? Our own lives are a good example.
On the surface, many of us (including me) seems to have a good and caring family, we are a 'good' student in school, we listen to our teachers, we study hard, bla bla bla...
But if you look beyond the surface, what do you find?
You find insecurities. Defiance. Family disputes. Bitterness. Negative emotions. Emoness. Pride.
SO, is the 'good' student, good anymore?
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It appears that we are all wearing masks. the masks cover up who we really are. It covers up the negative side of us, showcasing the positive side to the world.
I'm not trying to make a point here; this is just an observation. =)
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In regards to what I said about the 'good' student, I'm not trying to condemn. Don't get me wrong.
That was to those people who always come up to me and say things like "aiya, renjie comfirm get 100/100!" STOP THAT NONSENSE! EVEN THOUGH I GET RELATIVELY GOOD GRADES, I'M NOT PERFECT AND WILL NEVER BE. (btw, I'm not as good as you think) SO, CAN YOU PLS STOP BOTHERING ME AND GET ON WITH LIFE!?
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I just find it very irritating when ppl keep doing that. sigh.
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This post in a nutshell: We are NEVER perfect. That's why we need GOD.
My mom borrowed L- change the world from the VCD store.
i encourage you to watch it. BTW, you don't need to follow the deathnote series closely to understand the story plot. In fact, this movie has little to do with deathnote. And the protagnist is the cooler, sexier L. =)
Everyone has ambitions, including me. Here is a list of what I want to achieve...
1. Do well in CA!! 2. Find a good book which teaches me how to write HTML, XHTML, CSS. (the computer languages which help people to create blogskins.) 3. Learn adobe photoshop, be proficient in it...somehow. 4. Create a BLOGSKIN!! =)
Yeah, i guess you can see that I'm interested in IT from that list. I have mcuh more things I want to achieve; this is just a few. ;p
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me open up your plans and damn you're free look into your heart and you'll find love love love love listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing We're just one big family And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, i won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate I'm yours
*scat*
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer But my breath fogged up the glass and so I drew a new face and I laughed I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons it's what we aim to do our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me open up your plans and damn you're free look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours
so please don't, please don't, please don't, there's no need to complicate, Cause our time is short This, this, this is our fate, I'm yours
today i went back to school to serve food for speech day.
Supposed to get there at 3.00pm, but we 'chilled out' in the HomeEc lab until 5pm. Then, the real work started.
Food serving was ok, 'cause I had previous experience doing it. Nthing much to say.
About 1h later, we started to slack; all the food was cleared, everything done. We ate the leftovers of the food (no more satays, NOOOO!) then left shortly after that.
I'm getting 4h CIP for that, when a lot of the time was spent doing the un'saikung' work. Cool, eh? =)
