Look at the time. =D

Anyways, I realised that holidays ain't as fun as I thought it'll be. I can play comp, relax from my schoolwork (BUT STILL MUST DO HOMEWORK!!), and "forget" whatever I've learnt for sec 1 for these few months... sometimes I also go to friend's house... bla bla bla bla.

But guess what? I'm still feeling rather empty inside. As if this fun is not really "fun".

I feel the same thing as when you leave a movie. For that 1-half hour you enjoy the movie, but when you get out, all your troubles and worries and cares start to hit you...again.

Lols. I only remember 1 occasion I had real, clean fun. (there might be others , of course.) It was last year, in FOP (Festival of Praise) 2007, held at the Indoor Stadium. Had a really fantastic time worshipping, praising God... an when I came home at about 1am+, I was like... super high. =D

It isn't that I'm very stressed out... it's that I'm unable to find real, clean fun.

But of course, life is still relatively good. =)

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I ain't gonna talk about some philosphical stuff... Just wanna tell you about what I did yesterday night. (now is 12.19am ;p)

Went out with my family to visit my grandma. We went to this chinese restraunt for dinner (which was nice) then 'hanged out' at her house for awhile.

Its kinda nice to be together with your family members... After all, I don't see my grandma that often. Although I don't talk so much to her (because my chinese suckz and I don't really know what to talk about), its still good to spend some time with her.

And I noticed that my posts are getting longer and longer, while Nicholas is going the other way. Hahas. =D

Labels: experiences, life, thoughts

lols... today was very wacky. I didn't exactly know what I was doing.

Mrs Wong went through the 2005 maths paper today, and I didn't do so well.

sianz. I've been putting in quite alot of effort into maths, and this is the kind of results I get? What happened to 'nil sine labore'? *cry* =(

Then after school, since I had abt 1hr time before my lit. lesson, I went to D&T workshop to hand up my mobile.

And guess what? At the CRUCIAL moment, the stupid thing got entangled up! I had to cut out the string and re-tie it. But fortunately, I handed it up le; now its OVER AND DONE WITH! w00ts!

Overall, today was rather bad, with my freakish maths results and the mobile. I feel seriously very spooked for my maths; its like 4 days away, and I'm still getting this kind of horrible marks!

If I totally slacked for my maths, then of course I deserve those horrible results; but guess what, I DIDN'T! So why on Earth is life sooo unfair! Is 'nil sine labore' a piece of trash, a piece of claptrap, rubbish, baloney?

Only time will tell, i guess.

Labels: exams, life, school

3 days since I posted...

Anyways, I'm freakingly bored. My sis is playing audi the other com. so I can't play CABAL, so I'm being degraded to blogging here.

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Ever played Sims 2 before? In Sims 2, you control a virtual person and dictate what he will do, how his life will be like... basically, you are the character's GOD.worse still...


I sometimes wonder if life is like Sims 2. Is life just a 3d game, or is someone playing Sims 2 with us.... just that we are the virtual characters this time round?

That thought freaks me out.

Labels: gaming, life, random, thoughts

I've just recieved the message from Janice about the Christian-Hindu thing
in Bangalore.
RSS burned 20 churches last night, and planned to destroy 200
churches in Orissa.
Everything was caused by a misunderstanding. Why like
that!?
And BJP has planned to kill 200 pastors in the next 24 hours.

Read up more about this case at the following website.
http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/09/16/india.riots/index.html

And Christians, please pray for this guy called Paul Thangaia in
Bangalore.
RSS plans to kill him as well.
Christians, take some time to
pray.

More about this,

The violence spread to southern India
over the weekend when vandals attacked 14 churches in an hour in the state of
Karnataka Sunday, the network said.
They chopped down trees to block roads,
making it difficult for police to reach trouble spots. A Christian orphanage was
set on fire. A 20-year-old woman, who was teaching children inside, burned to
death.
By Tuesday, about 20 deaths had been reported, said Praveen Kumar,
the superintendent of police in the worst-affected Kandhamal district.

Christians! Please pray for God's protection!

From: http://the--afterlife.blogspot.com/

This reminds me of 'Where is The love?'

But if you're not a christian, at least put those poor ppl out there in ur mind. There's a chain SMS being passed around; if you received it, pls bother to pass it on. You're doing the world a favour ;p

I wonder why people have to be discriminated, assaulted because of RELIGION. Seriously, religion is only a thin line that seperates people. Why blow up that thin line? Why cause calamity after calamity to happen because of a small matter?

I remember reading something from the Roald Dahl book, The BFG (Big Friendly Giant) was telling sofie that humans were the only ones who killed each other. Snakes don't kill each other. Raccons don't kill each other. Napoleon didn't kill Snowball.

What does this say about ourselves?

But anyway, I pray for those people out there. Although strong winds may blow, God is always able; hold on to what euu know. =)

Labels: God, life, thoughts

Top of my playlist: Who I am Hates Who I've Been- Relient K


I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

This is a Christian song. *gaps*

But seriously, christian music rawks! The guitar solos, drum, wadever-instrument-you-name-it RAWKS! It's like a style of its own; very different from ur linkin park and ur MCR and ur Metellica.

So basically, I have seen myself... change alot. In good ways, fortunately. So WHo I am realyl hates who I was before this. =)

Well, I hope that I'll keep changing for the better. -.-

Labels: God, life, music, thoughts

Some people think I'm emo.

Well, that maybe true. I don't exactly know...

Sometimes I love silence. Being by yourself. Sometimes, I feel it's when I have the most freedom, when I'm not confined by people around me.

Sometimes, when people talk to me I feel very irritated, like they have stepped into an unseen boundary.

Call me introverted if you want.

Labels: emo, life, music, random

Biology

-Are you left or right handed?
Right. =)))

-Ever removed anything from your body?
Teeth, My common sense.

-Last heavy item you lifted?
A gigantic looking bench you can find at the scout den.

-Ever been knocked out?
Fortunately, no. =)



BullShitOlogy.

-If it were possible, would you want others to know when you would die?
No way!

-If you could change your name, what would it be?
Hanate wakuso shiseo tadashite teriyaki suzuki honda civic. (sounds familiar? ;p)

-What colour do you think looks best on you?
black, white.

-Ever swallowed a non-food item?
Not that I can remember...


DareOlogy


-Would you kiss a person of the same sex for $100?
Probably... yes.

-Would you cut off your little finger for $200,000?
NO! I NEED IT TO HOLD THE MOUSE PROPERLY!

-Would you stop blogging forever for $50,000?
yes, but I'll go onto MSN sapcers, friendster, facebook...

-Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Wasabi is out of the question.

-Would you, without the fear of punishment, take a human life for a million bucks?
Why don't you do it first?



DumbOlogy

-What is in your left pocket?
Nothing.

-Is Napoleon Dynamite a good movie?
?

-Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Hardwood.

-Do you sit or stand in the shower?
Seriously, who sits in shower?

-How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
one, from the local mama store. =D


LastOlogy

-The last person who texted you is?
Shuai Chen/Shuai/ Fortune Duck/ China/ Beijing

-Last person who called you is?
My dog, shiro. He called me to clear his defecation.

-Last person you hugged is?
myself. -.-


CurrentOlogy

-Missing someone?
You.

-Mood?
Slightly emo, becoming more emo by the second.

-Listening to?
Heartbreaker by Will.i.am, and trying to ignore Mum telling me to go and finish my D&T HW.
Also, listening to the idiotic English version of the Sheng Siong commercial.

-Watching?
Nothing.

-Worrying about?
D&T HW, Mock Exams, practically everything abt school.

-Wearing?
Clothes?

RandomOlogy

-First place you went this morning?
Into my dreams.

-What can you not wait to do?
Finish reading the HTML, CSS, XHMTL Bible.
RULE THE WORLD WITH MY CHOPSTICKS!!! =D

-Smile often?
=)

-Are you a friendly person?
I guesss so...

the 10 lucky people...

1.Yu Lian
2.Tristen
3.Francis
4.MRS LIM!!! =)
5.En Quan
6. Jac
7. Bok Woon
8. Shuai Chen
9. Kian Meng
10.

Labels: fun, life, quizzes, school

I borrowed a book from the library- "HTML, XHTML and CSS Bible"  It looks into the programming languages CSS, HTML, XHTML, which is used to make your fabulous blogskins.

Labels: computer, life, random

You Are a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich

You life your life in a free form, artistic style. You are incredibly creative and at times, quite messy. Deep down, you are a kid at heart. And you aren't afraid to express it. Your best friend: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Club Sandwich

Inspired by Nick Tay's blog...

lols... he is apparently my best friend...

Labels: fun, life, quizzes, random

Perfect by simple plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I
wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing is alright

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

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This song seems to be dedicated to those 'kiasu' parents, those that pressurize their children to do well in studies, get that O level cert, enter a good sec. sch... the list goes on and on...

What they don't realise is this: Studies isn't everything. Unfortunately, Singapore's education system is so 失败that everyone thinks that aceing the next test, getting a perfect L1R5 is e most important.

I would certainly prefer to see someone with a not-so-perfect L1R5 but with a good character, a good heart and a good set of values, as compared to someone with the perfect grades but with a totally corrupted mind and heart. And here I'm not talking about 'hornyness'. I'm talking about something even worse than that.

Come to think of it, 10 years down the road, who cares about how much you score for your PSLE, who cares about how much you got for your lit. CA, and who cares what your O level results were? Those are all history; what is more important is the PRESENT.

Phews! That was quite a long post!~ =)

Labels: education, life, music, school, thoughts

This is for deon, who requested help.

I'm not THAT good in maths (mr liu shuai chen is), but anyways, i hope to be able to help you...

First of all, maths is not a study subject (e.g. history, geography, or even science) where reading up your textbook, referring to notes can help you that much. You must PRACTICE!

For a start, try the textbook or wb questions, or even assessment books. Make sure that their questions gt some 'standard' however. =)

Be on par with Mrs Wong. What I mean is that if she is teaching construction now, make sure you are revising the same topic as she is teaching. If you don't understand anything, go to her, your tutors, parents etc. (anyone who can help you)

When I do a final revision for exams, let's say a few nights before, I will usually go through the questions in my wb, assesment books. Make sure you go through every question, and if you are wrong, know why you made that mistake. Go back to your wrong questions and 'redo' them from time to time; see whether you can get them correct. This will test whether you really understand how to solve e question.

In whatever you do, you must work hard to achieve success. That's why we have nil sine labore. Same for maths. It's the practice that makes the difference.

Oh yeah, remember to revise for your maths early, so you don't burn midnight oil. ;p

I don't know if all this is useful to you... but I hope it is... you can ask ppl like shuai chen or jeremy for more help... Finally, join a study group if you think you cna study in groups....

PS i'm proudly anti-tuition. =)

Labels: education, life

the title of this wonderful skin I'm using is "beautiful illusions" But what does that actually mean?

Labels: education, life

My mom borrowed L- change the world from the VCD store.

i encourage you to watch it. BTW, you don't need to follow the deathnote series closely to understand the story plot. In fact, this movie has little to do with deathnote. And the protagnist is the cooler, sexier L. =)

Labels: life, movies

Yo~

I'm in the middle of my exams... Science tomorrow and Maths day after tomorrow... Wish me all the best!

I just returned from Marine Parade Library. I was studying there with Bong, the Asian Idol and Jon-as. (hmm... studying there? sounds funny;P)

Lols... now my head is crammed up with atomic structures, anions, cations, diffusion, melting and freezing, periodic table... the list goes on and on.

Gtg, gt to do something relaxing before my mind blows up. =)

Labels: fun, life, school

I'm confused.

Seriously. I'm confused.

I'm irritated, frustrated, angry, feeling emo and blue.

Ever felt like that before?

Labels: blog, life, random, thoughts